dreaming of things big and wonderful

How I Met Your Mother is one of my favorite shows... it's funny yet real in so many ways. In a recent episode I was watching, Lily and Marshall are about to get married, and Lily is getting cold feet. Out of nowhere, we find out that she applied to an art fellowship in California... they live in New York. After much debate, she decides she is going to take the fellowship; "I need to figure out who I am outside of us," she tells Marshall. They break up.

I have been desperately looking for an internship for the summer, and my late start is not helping me at all. It's my fault that I waited so long, but regardless, I've been on the computer for hours the last few days applying to just about any internship I can find. Today, while I was sitting at the computer, alone in the apartment, I decided to look up internships in advertising and fashion all over. I applied to various internships in New York... and even one in London.

What was I thinking? I can't explain what came over me. I just did it. Now, don't be scared that this is going to shake my relationship with Jameson; remember, I couldn't get an internship around here... so what makes me think I can get one elsewhere? Perhaps I got dreamy and started thinking about how glamorous and wonderful it would be to have that amazing, once-in-a-lifetime fashion internship that would jumpstart my exciting career in runway or something else fantastic. I don't know what it was, really, but I've still got this dreamy look in my eye just thinking about it. It's fun to wonder what it could be like if a miracle happened....

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