hoping for a miracle

So everyone knows I don't really like my job. I'm sorry, but serving up hot dogs just doesn't thrill me. I know I should be grateful that I have a job and that it pays me well, but its hard going to work day after day, putting on a hairnet, and fishing hot dogs out of hot greasy water. I applied for a different position, even though I'm not supposed to move out of my initial position during my first 90 days. I was told by the manager of that department, the marketing department, that if I kept it hush hush from the other employees, that I might have a chance regardless. So I put in my letter of interest and some samples of my work in the hopes that it would blow the manager away. In the beginning, she seemed really interested in me, but I haven't heard much from her since, and I'm starting to get anxious. It gets worse, however; I know another person that applied. He is a great guy and a really good employee. He has more seniority over me as well. So if I wasn't nervous enough before, I can assure you I'm really nervous now. The job posting is over in two days, and then they should start doing interviews for it. Hopefully I do really well on the interview. Hopefully I blow them away. Hopefully the fact that I'm an advertising/public relations major outweighs all the things that make my competition good choices. 

I want this job so much. I need this job for the sake of my sanity; I can only serve so many hot dogs before I lose my mind. I need this job for my future; the experience I could gain from this will hopefully help me find my "real" job when I graduate. I need this job for my relationship; Jameson has been great, but I can see that me hating a job that he loves is putting a strain between us. I need this job to pick me up from my rut; looking gross and feeling gross is no good for me, and you'd be surprised what a good outfit can do for my mood. It's sounds pretty shallow when I say that, I know, but its the truth. I don't care that I'd probably get a raise and I don't care that it's full-time. All of those things are great, but I need this for me. For my life. So I'm crossing my fingers and considering having a conversation with God so that I can get this job. Because if I don't get this position, I don't know... I'd rather not even think about that as possibility right now. Hopefully I can express this passion in my interview. Hopefully my work samples will show them what I know and can accomplish. Hopefully I get this job.