new adventures

I've been on the computer for hours and hours the last few days, looking for jobs and applying for the few that seem like they could be decent options for me. The outlook, however, isn't looking so good. Oh well, I suppose. My boyfriend told me to stop stressing about it and take the day off from my job hunt and just enjoy my free time. I agreed, but I can't stop worrying about my finances.

Anyway, I started to think that maybe this bad luck I've been having with jobs is a sign that I need to sit down and think about what I really want from my life. What am I passionate about? I came to the conclusion that I would absolutely love to get involved with fashion photography. Wardrobe styling, assisting the photographer, whatever. I think I'd love working in that environment, regardless of what I'd be doing.

Have I been watching too much of "The Hills" recently? Maybe. I would be lying if I didn't say I spent a good portion of an afternoon watching the first season all over again. But seriously. I would kill to be Lauren or Whitney, helping with model castings and assisting on photo shoots. I wanna be doing that.

Oh, and please don't tell me mother. She'd kill me if she knew I wanted to pursue such a, uh, how should I say this, unrealistic career path. Don't get me wrong; I understand that starting off in this industry means getting paid a whole lotta nothing, so I plan to have another job to pay the bills. I haven't totally lost my mind. And who knows, maybe finding opportunities to get into this career are few and far between; maybe I won't be able to get my foot in the door at all. Oh well, I guess I'll at least be able to say I tried.

This weekend I plan to go over to my parent's house and use my little sister as a model. She's tall, skinny, and has really great hair so I think she'll make a good model. Then I will pick out her clothes, do her makeup, style her hair, and take some pictures of her. I think it will be a fun experience for the both of us, and then I will have something of a small portfolio to get me started.

So I guess we'll just have to wait and see if this dreamer's dreams come true...

(photo from here)